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Reset

Ok, it’s time. I’ve been meaning to re-evaluate this project for like 2 weeks.

I feel isolated, overwhelmed and this results in a feeling of treading water. I’ve been here before.

Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning in stuff, and maintaining this blog - writing the posts, creating the daycards - is like the cherry on top, if the cherry on top was made of tungsten

I feel like I’m not really doing much designing. And what I see others doing and calling design interests me less and less - designing another UI for another app.

I think all of these things had been brewing under the surface for a while now, but they really bubbled up last week, when I read a few big-picture articles about design, especially some of Mike Monteiro’s. (Like this one that reframes designing as a service for the people who are going to be using the product, instead of a service for a client.)

All I can say at this point is smth smth design ethics. I feel my interest in creating nice looking UIs waning. Something older and deeper is on the rise… Could I bring my values into this and make it more than just a job?

This is all very fresh and kind of confused. Abstract even. But things have been stirred up that can’t be unstirred.

And so I gotta ask myself: how much of what I’ve been doing during the first 24 days of this challenge do I want to call designing?